I NEED TO FINISH SOMETHING

I've been starting books for the past year and haven't finished one yet. I really need to complete at least one of my stories. The problem stems from being way to stress, and blogging way too much, and a busy grueling schedule doesn't help. At this stage in the game I'd rather sit my flat ass down and read someone else(Aliyah, Layne, Taige, Nathasha, Charlotte,Dakota and Nathalie)then to put in the effort writing. It's agonizing for me to sit here and pour over a story that is flowing in my mind, but now through my fingers. *sigh*

I feel lazy, uninspired, and derelict. Writing isn't a hobby for me, it's my job. Sometimes I'm afraid to do this job because it seems so much bigger than me. Right now I lack the discipline it takes to write my novels. I feel overwhelmed because I've stepped up my game. I just need to showcase my progress. I also need to sell my damned house.

I'll keep posting about my progress.

Lea

MISSING YOU

Tis the season to reminisce. I'm realizing that I miss my friends old and new who are gone. They aren't dead, (except two of them, I placed an * by their names.)they are just away from me. I haven't seen them in a while or spoken to them and I really miss them, so in this blog, I'll do a row call for my homies:

Terrial Fair
Nicole Lafontaine
Tamika Fair
Freya Chester
Kenitra Keeney
Julia Martin
Jocelyn White
Johnnie Walker
Katricia Carter
Nicole Dixon
Sylvia Sales and Sam
Elle
Shanna
Jose Campo
Jim Allen
Izola Singleton
Terry Todd
Yank Kennedy*
The Baker Sisters Monica and Ericca
Royce Todd
Jerry Smith
Judy Reid
Lakeitha Taylor
Dap*
Leslie Collazo
Earl Lewis
Trish
Glenda Neal
Sonja Cline
Retha Scott

I miss you,
Lea

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Model Moi?

So I receive this email from this guy who found my pic on tagged. He wants my information so that I can model for him. (Yeah what evah).Who will my old ass model for? Oil of Olay. I'm saying to myself "Self. Is this guy freaking serious? People actually fall for this line?" Yeah, I'll give him my info and he comes and get my ass and I'll end up all over the Internet as a gang rape--NOT! Anyway, beware of fraud, and please don't give out your personal information to strangers, and yes that means your friends off of myspace.

BTW, if someone wants you to cash a check because they've won the lottery in some foreign country, don't do it! That too is a fraud that will leave you holding the bag. Doubt me, watch the court shows.

I Worry About Her.

I love Amy Winehouse's music. Her music is awesome, however, I am very concerned about her. She looks bad. I mean really bad. In the past I use to wonder if the crackheads on the Ave. had wealth, what would their lives be like? Now I know the answer. (Just the same)

On a lighter note, she looks like she can whoop some a**.

I'm out.
Lea

I Miss Him

I miss Dave Chappelle. I miss the Dave Chappelle show. I miss his skits and jokes. Damn. Damn. Damn. I want him back!!! Why comedy central? Why? I know that Carlos Mencina is funny; but he's no Dave Chappelle. I love that Foxworthy guy and his friends, but they're no Dave. (sigh) When will he be back? Lie to me to give me hope? I know I sound pathetic, but I'm there now. Come back Dave, Come back.

wiping away the lone tear rolling down my eye, I gotta make this blog cry. (my ode to Jay-Z)

My meltdown is now over.
I'm out.
Lea

A BITTER BREAK UP FOR ALLTEL

I'm looking at the Alltel and Cingular, who is now the new At&t. Remember when they use to be partners? Now Alltel has AT&T messed up at every opportunity in their commercials. LOL
I love it, especially the new one with the 'TK' character. They are always having AT&T yelling or injured in the commercial or consuming the brunt of the brutality of the injuries. Oh a bitter break-up for Alltel. Fun TV for me.

Lea

...AND I'D LIKE FOR NAOMI TO HOST

I was looking at the Tyra Banks show yesterday wishing that Naomi Campbell hosted her own talk show instead. I mean I can see it now. Instead of Naomi crying, her guest will be crying, with her lighting up a cigarette telling them to shut the hell up because they are getting on her bloody nerves.

Oh and the topics of discussion would probably differ than any other talk shows. I imagine Naomi's topic of discussions will center on important things like:
How to pass around an aged Formula 1 race car driver while in Jimmy Choo's.

Don't leave the relationship with out a yacht tip.

And How to handle your help.

I can see Kimora Lee Simmons on there as guest talking about life in the Fab lane and how she keeps from smacking a bitch.

Ms. J with his ashy lips and nappy hair showing the audience how to walk down a run way looking like a hot damned mess wearing a mu mu and some heals.

I don't see Naomi trying to council every episode with "When I was growing up" stories.
Naomi would be like "yeah darlin', cry me a river, build a bridge and get over it."(I have to throw in some Jay-Z)

The Naomi Campbell show. It holds promise.

I'm out.

IT'S A BIRD. IT'S A DANE. NO! IT'S DENNIS RODMAN IN DRAG

I was reading Bossip, that's where I came across a photo of Dennis Rodman in drag. No need to say anything else.

Lea

WOW, AND YOU CALLED HER THE N* WORD?

So Dog The Mullet Wearing Bounty Hunter was caught on tape calling his son's girlfriend the N* word six times, and now he wants to start his apology tour. I smell sh*t. I for one, am not surprised by his use of the N* word. He wears a mullet! I've seen the show several times, I can't see him discussing the plight of the African American experience with knowledgeable insight. He is low class, so he uses low class words. Did I mention that he wears a mullet?
I can't help believing that this smell like publicity stunt. Who gets caught accidentally/intentionally calling someone a derogatory name like that, unless he wanted to get caught? That was no Freudian slip. But then he apologizes to black people. Jesus take the wheel. I guess his mullet is in indecision. (Do I hate the N*, or do I feel sorry for black people?)
If you haven't noticed, I'm trying to type mullet at least six times in this blog to see if it's an unconscionable habit. No, I'm aware of me writing 'mullet'. I'm sure he was conscience that he was saying the N* word as well.
Here's the AP link:http://news.yahoo.com/s/cpress/20071101/ca_pr_on_en/dog_bounty_hunter_racist_1



I'm out,
Lea

genarlow wilson

Thank God he's free. Genarlow Wilson, the Ga. boy who was convicted of felony sex offense and was sentenced to ten years for having consensual sex with a 15year old when he was 17.(Lord Take The Wheel)Many of us heathens would be just getting out of jail if this type of malicious prosecution was the norm. I mean, don't we have enough perverted pedophiles in the community to convict rather than meddling into high school mischief that should be handled by parents, some punishment and a chasity belt? My bad they are the ones prosecuting these kids behaving badly. I wish the best for this young man. I hope he goes on with his life and fight the good fight. I don't want to see him 'making it rain' on Youtube like the Jena6 boneheads. Have you seen that clip with the Jena6 crew flashing their defense money around and flossing their jewelery for the camera. I'm rolling my eyes to the sky. I guess they think that the public was rooting for them and not the justice system. It's about them...Not! I know that I didn't want to see these boys do 20 years for jumping someone, hell I've been jumped and all the girls got was beat down individually by my big sister Lisa--Love you Elle. Any who, I was supporting equal justice, not juvenile delinquents behaving badly.

Okay, I've had my Jena6 melt down. Back to Genarlow Wilson, I wish the best for him and his family. It took a lot of courage to do what he did. (He fought the charges rather than take a plea deal from the public pretender). Here's a link to the case.

http://www.ajc.com/metro/content/metro/stories/2007/10/26/genarlow_1026.html?cxntlid=homepage_tab_newstab

CAN'T HARDLY WAIT

I am way too busy to read at the moments; however, there are some books out there that have me chomping at the bits. I can't wait to read them: Shadow Dance by Taige Crenshaw; Whipped by Layne Blacque, Undercover by Terri Carnis.
I can't wait to finish up my 'to do' list. Do you have any interesting reads?

Lea
L.T. Rashard
www.leaa4u.com
When Real Life Hits The Pages of Romance

SoCal is burning

Jesus, Mary and Jojo, Southern California is burning! My prayers go out to the poor people in that region. I use to be stationed out at NAVSTA, San Diego. I lived off of the I-15, near Qualcomm Statium. (Qualcomm Statium is now housing evacuees.)
It's sad because many of these people have lost everything, except their lives. (And that's the most important thing)
And thank God for the firefighters who have been up for days fighting this blaze. Their heroism is just amazing. I'll keep them and their families in my prayers.

Lea

WHAT DAY IS IT???

Lately I've been running around like a chicken with her head cut off. Why? Because I have so many things going on. I've even forgotten what day of the week it is. Seriously. And to make matters worst, I 've not been getting a lot of sleep, and when I do, I dream of my closest friends. Yesterday when I dozed off, I dreamed that Stephanie was telling me about new book contracts. And last night, I dreamed that Nikki and I was on a secret Ops. mission in the future, and Terrial was there, so she and I went shoe shopping. And all the shoes...
The significance of this is that Steph and I met at OMP(we have the same publisher).
Nikki and I met in the military.
Terrial and I met when I was 2 and she was 3.

Anyway, back to me and the day. It's Thursday, I think and I have a long to-do list. I can't wait until Friday. Sigh.

Lea

NEW WEBSITE

www.leaa4u.com is up and poppin'! Come and check it out!!!

Lea

MY ASS IS OUT OF SHAPE

So I went camping with J3(my youngest daughter) and her GS troop. Anyway, we hiked four miles to eat. Brilliant me took my diabetes medication 2 hours before we were to eat. Did I mention that I need to eat when I take this medication? Anyway, by the time I hiked up to the cafeteria, I was shaking, sweating, and ready to pass out. Thank God the nurse on duty was eating at that time. They administered a diabetic emergency kit(GS rules, they are really prepared for anything). After an hour or so, I was ready for my hike back to the closing ceremony. I spent the rest of the weekend trying to calm fluctuating sugar levels, and nursing a headache.

Lea

BLACK VS AFRICAN AMERICAN

Do you claim to be "black" or "African American"? I was reading a blog where the blogger says that we(black/African Americans) should stop calling ourselves African Americans and call ourselves blacks... The bloggers comment stirred something in me because I don't feel as if I should choose. I use the words interchangeably.

There are problems with both titles. For instance, what other group of people identify themselves by their color? To me, it shows a lack of origin, culture and history. But I am comfortable with identifying myself as a Black American. So because it's convenient to say, it's a keeper?

Now the title of African American holds promise; however, when I think of an African American, I think of Barack Obama, my great-grand daddy, Charlize Theron. Not Beyonce', my cousin Essie, or Sean "P-Diddy" Combs. The latter three were born and raised here in the U.S. However, they all have African Ancestors.

I guess the answer lies in how one sees him/her self. I'll continue to call myself American, and if asked, "what race are you?", I'll say either African American, or black. I simply refused to be referred to as colored.

Hopefully in my life time we can agree on a universal name. I for one choose American.

I'm out.

Lea

I'M PISSED

I'm pissed. I'm not sure if the story of the prominent attorney from Gulf Breeze and his "alleged" proposition to an undercover officer to have sex with her 5 year old daughter in Michigan has made national news.(Did I mention that he was willing to travel from Florida to Michigan to have sex with a 5 year old). Sigh. Anyway, he was busted.(On him they found a Dora Explorer doll,hoop earrings and petroleum jelly.
Here's the link.
http://www.pensacolanewsjournal.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20070918/NEWS01/709180321/1006

While in jail, he committed suicide.(He was on suicide watch previously because he'd tried to kill himself when he'd first got into custody.)
I feel for this man's family, friends and associates. I really do. HOWEVER, I have issues with the community treating this man's death as a tragic accident, and focusing not on his crimes, but on what he's done for the community.
In my opinion, he was a disturbed monster who wanted to do unspeakable things to a 5 year old. Who, by his own admission, have done this before, and the community wants to remember his good works? Give me a F***ing break(I'm rolling my eyes).
I believe that the community should remember what kind of pervert he was so that we can be open to the fact that even respected pillars of the communities can be monsters. And start making examples rather than martyrs out of these individuals.
I'm angry because this is reflective of how our society view child predators. I'm not talking about the 18 year old having sex with his 16 year old girlfriend. I'm talking about these nasty ass pedophiles who prey on our children for sexual gratification.

I want to put a stop to them receiving suspended sentences, 4 months in jail, and other slaps on the hands when the children will always, and I mean always have to bare the scares for what these individuals have done to them. I say let the punishment fit the crime. The victim will have to suffer for life, why not the perp?
Okay. I've ranted enough.
What's your opinion?

SCREWING PEOPLE IS OUR BUSINESS

So the President can find money to keep our troop in Iraq; however, it's too expensive to extend coverage for children's health care. What planet does he live on? I mean this is not just his country, he's supposed to do what is in the best interest for the American people yet 72% of the people wanted the SCHIP bill to pass both Republicans and Democrats were for this bill and Mr. This is My Country, And I Can Do What I Want To Do, Fuck Checks And Balances, Bush, decides to veto the bill. He says that it's too much government control. Hell someone needs to help the American people when health care is way too expensive and Insurance companies have gone rogue. What happens when you have a child with special needs that requires thousands and thousands of dollars worth of care each month? As Americans, don't we pay enough money to the government? Oh well. I pray that with a new president comes changes for a better. This country can't have another "I" President.

Lea

THE EX FACTOR

I'm listening to Ne-Yo's song Do You. It got me wondering about ex boyfriends past. I went through the gamet of thinking of ex's, and past relationships, and realized that I had no interest in contacting any of them.(In the song, NeYo is wondering how his ex girlfriend is fairing out since she'd moved on from him.)Not I. I shrudder when thinking about my ex boyfriends, and wonder "What the hell was I thinking." Some of them were nice young men, but I wasn't exactly the nicest girlfriend.(sigh) And some of the guys that I've dated were pure a**holes. But no, I really don't wonder what happened to my ex's.